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Day 23 – What Song Reminds You Of A Person?

LEGO HOUSE by Ed Sheeran (2011) reminds me of my former best friend and boyfriend, John. 

I’m gonna pick up the pieces and build a Lego house
If things go wrong we can knock it down
My three words have two meanings
There’s one thing on my mind
It’s all for you

And it’s dark in a cold December, but I’ve got you to keep me warm
And if you’re broken I’ll mend you
And keep you sheltered from the storm that’s raging on now

I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
And out of all these things I’ve done - I think I love you better now
I’m out of sight, I’m out of mind
I’ll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I’ve done - I think I love you better now

I’m gonna paint you by numbers and color you in
If things go right we can frame it, and put you on a wall
And it’s so hard to say it but I’ve been here before
And I’ll surrender up my heart and swap it for yours

Chorus

Don’t hold me down
I think my braces are breaking and it’s more than I can take

And it’s dark in a cold December, but I’ve got you to keep me warm
And if you’re broken I’ll mend you
And keep you sheltered from the storm that’s raging on now

Chorus [x2]

I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
And out of all these things I’ve done - I will love you better now

It’s a little eerie that this question comes on the 5th year anniversary of his death - March 20th. John had just turned 21 when he was hit and killed by a drunk driver, and I was in a very dark place for months following his death. I think about him everyday, and on this particular day, I miss him so much I feel physical pain. I was 18 when it happened, almost ready to graduate high school, and I know I was young. Maybe life would have changed things between us or maybe we would have been together forever. All I know is that he was the love of my life, and there’s never a day that goes by when I don’t think of him and how good he was or how he made me feel. 

This song didn’t really hit home when I first heard it. I discovered it in October when the video came out, and it starred Rupert Grint. I adore Rupert, and I basically enjoyed it at first because of my admiration for him. But then I actually listened to the melody and the lyrics, and that’s when I was thrown for a loop thinking of John. He was the king of optimism, always looking on the bright side of things, and he would always say that he’d try to love more than he loved the day before.

I’m not sure if I’m the one singing or you are, but all I know is that five years without you, John, I miss you, and I think I love you better now.

  1. tenkriss said: Sending some hugs your way <3
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